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6月16日 WOWyes people... i am still alive!
hahaha i dont think anyone actually thought i was dead, i think everyone just got over these space things at the same time. i'd say, SUMMER. lol. umm..
well latest news, im living with amie at the moment.. her mom is in italy for six weeks so im escaping my dad and keeping amie company at the same time. hehehe. its been real fun, with jed making regular visits too.
ive still been going to the bay pretty much every weekend cos theres nothing else to do around here! amie and i had a dinner party of sorts.. lol.. well.. we actually cooked a massive lush roast chicken MONSTROSITY and had some girlies over and got WAAAAAASTED hehehehe
ive been cooking pretty much every night which has been fun, but tonight it was definitely a joint effort, we made spinach and ricotta cannelloni yum! we've also been going to body balance on mondays! we are SO gooood lol.
i havent been working that much recently, damn seasonal industry. its too quiet these days i hate it. but when i am working it has been good, not too many dramas..
umm.. well today amie and i cleaned my house.. like SCRUBBED it sparkling clean so well.. and we got payed $80 each for it ahahahaha. so tonight we went shoppiiiiiiing! and now our pantry and cupboard is full agaiiin hoorah! lol. we can cook whatever we want each night without thinking damn, we dont hav this we dont hav that.
ok, im bored with this already.. im might put some new pics up in the next few days ..
love shmal
xoxo
4月23日 just a quicky...hey everyone.. guess whos on the gold coast!!
some time in the next few days ill hav all my pics up on here. but i didnt get to take it out when we went out.. we've been having an awesome time going out everynight since we got here, i danced from about 6pm to 3.30am last night, had so much fun, felt so good to meet new ppl, dressing up, shakin ma booty to some good music, getting free drinks and teasing some boys.. i kissed two last night, wooo! but that was over the space of about 10 hours! i kissed one when we went to brisbane on friday night, that was ok, nowhere near as good as surfers, but yeah, that boy was weird, he licked my face!! thursday night i got so trashed, we had shots then went to the tavern down the road, for uni night.. danced so much!! we each got a jug each - 5 shots and soft drink, no ice
 and got blotto!the great thing is i havent had a hangover yet!! i have caught the gold coast flu thats going around, all the girls are sick, we're all nasally and coughing on everyone hehehe
we have to get up at 5.30am to go to the airport tonorrrow!! and apparently i have an irish cousin john in australia!! and hes coming down the coast too.. soooo random!!
anywayyyy i should go.. make sure all my shit is good to go for tomorrow.
ill write more later.. and put pics up too
~shmal~ 4月19日 round, round, round we go..so.. been quite a while since ive updated..
oh well.
im not going to be able to write in chronological order so i think ill just ramble on about what ever memories come into my head from the last two weeks or so...
the weekend before last was a bit of a doozy.. didnt work on the friday - day or night - so hung out with mosh helping her move house, then got jed too in the evening getting ready for the bayview.. amie drove from tuross to mine so i started drinking on the way.. was a bit pissed at mine trying to get ready, did my make up.. lol.. not too great hahaha..
we started off to the bay with james driving me, amie, jed and danny in my car..
by the time we got to the bay, to get KFC, i was well and truly gone. with nothing in my stomach but 5 cans of smirnoff.. like 10.5 standard drinks!! i decided going to starfish might be fun.. so i went and made a fool outa myself there, being loud and brash and .. drunk. all the staff trying to get me to sit down and shut up but i kept yakking on in my loud voice.. so i copped it next day at work hahaha
did some stupid stuff.. got kicked out of the bowlo, passed out in dennis' arms in the garden.. got kidnapped by todd.. had a random blood nose and bled everywhere.. ewww..
woke up fine and dandy though
that night got the rumour mill churning again though... losers. have nothing better in their boring lame lives so they make up a whole life for me to keep them entertained.
during the week i just worked i think.. oh wait, i stayed at amies on monday night, chels and mel came over for a girly hairdressing night.. i dyed and cut my hair.
ummm.. on friday i went out to tuross again, got jed and mosh, we went to KFC again, made some hilarious video footage, went to the bayview, it was lame so we went to BAYBZ (lol) and it was awesome.. lots of boys to buy us drinks, lots of ppl dancing, fun music.. amie got herself a lift home, but i was kinda ok cos i had a lush warm bed to stay in at denhams beach
 then on saturday night i went to work and then when tegs and i had both finished we went to the pub but couldnt get in!! they said we were too late but we werent even and they refused us entry! how lame. plus i had already started drinking so i couldnt just drive home! so i snuck into robs house again hehehe no probs. worked 11.25 hours on easter sunday!! so tired when i got home.. i had been running on 3 coffees between 9 and 3 til i went to tegans and we made lush potato bake, we were very inventive - spinach and bacon included!!
other stuff has happened but i just cant be bothered. there were more rumours about me and another boy, but yeah.. just cos i comfort someone whos devo about their ex, doesnt mean ive fucked him.
ANYWAY!!
tomorrow morning im going to drive up to sydney with Amie.. then we're flying out to the gold coast at 930pm then we're partying til next monday with cally, raine, reioni.. other ppl.... seeing lotsa people :) and then driving back home from syd sometime.. its gonna be awesome and i cant wait to tell u all about it!!
anyway im super tired and have to pack my bags in the morning! plus drive a whole heap so id better go sleeeeepp
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love shmal xoxo
4月4日 ..R u M o U r S..Doesnt everyone just LOVE rumours?? boy they get my mouth watering for a good gossip and some innovative speculation!
no seriously, ive never been one to start rumours - well, ok in about year 9 i made up that claire had webbed toes cos she always wore socks, but yeah.. i am a reformed girl these days!! like last week when someone told me that a girl i had just met had fucked a whole football team or something.. i just dissed it straight away. im not about to jump on board and say that not only did she fuck the whole football team, but she was in with the coach, the manager and eddie maguire too!! lol. i wouldnt even repeat it.. things like that can be so damaging.
anyway. thats now happened to me. im kinda over it now, but i was still shocked to think some people who only just know me can judge me so quickly.
ok im making this so much more serious than it is. im just worried that im gonna get a rep because of what must have started out as a joke.. its too absurd to be true anyway. hopefully most people realise that! it would just be pretty bad if it got round to important ppl, and i dont get a chance to explain myself..
anywayyyy...
i had a smashing time at the pub on friday night!! got rather pissed, just like the good old days and was bouncing out of bed in the morning!! i had about 8 cruisers or more, plus two panadeine forte LOL
there are a few memory gaps, but i remember a few random events, such as
 some random lady coming over to me when i was with jed and mosh, and asking me to stand up.. so i did, then asked why. she explained it was because she had just said to her mates "shit that girls legs go all the way up and make cunts outa themselves!" LOL soooo random!taking my panadeine forte number one and jed and mosh going "dont take the other one alice, it might be bad" or something lol so i just snuck it wen they werent looking hehehe.. then going up to a random car with a family in it and asking for water hahatelling the new bouncer that amie had a fake ID lol.. OMG.. "Sober you'd better sasha up!!"that whole argument between sasha and ben in the venga bus.. with me mosh and jed just cracking up at everything that was said, and at sasha's "owie".. and espacially when ben was trying to be serious when he said "theyre not gonna let u in if youre this drunk sasha! theyre gonna look at u stumbling up and just go.. fuck me!!" LMAO!!the whole confusion over when the new nightclub was open and how absolutely everyone was talking about it and then tegans msg that said "doesnt it open in april??" and me writing back "its april at midnight!!" lolPlus all the random stuff that me and amie find funny the next morning.. about random houses.. like camo doorstops lmao!
a very nice boy (who was actually not so nice the night before) drove us all the way home and bought us water the next morning in his lush car
 anyway.. i wana do something on friday.. something exciting!! its my day off you see, so i want to live it up! then go out and boogy that night !! any suggestions??
ok sooooo BYE!!
leave me some comments!
 Love Shmal
xoxo
3月25日 Hospital, Canberra, Tegan, Work, Bayspew, Boys = MY LIFEI think its about time i update.
man oh man... what a life i lead.
i wonder if anyone thought i had died cos i hadnt updated since the day before my operation...? hehehe well i could have!!
hospital was ok i guess. could have been worse. could have been better.
The Upsides:
The Downsides:
so since then i have just been chillen at home, popping my hundreds of pills, trying to manage the pain. eating was ok for a while but then it suddenly got a whole lot worse and i cant have anything cold, or anything solid. so that rules out ice-cream and everything else. soup is good. noodles.. i actually had some ice-cream last night, that wasnt too bad, but was reduced to tears over milo today. i have stitches in my throat. its the worst thing out. its like having something permanently stuck in your throat! and everything i eat catches on them. i was supposed to work on tuesday but had a downhill slide on monday night, had to have emergency doctor visits to get more effective painkillers. the new painkillers worked so much better, but as tegan said, its like im stoned. hahaha Went to Canberra with tegs on wednesday, that was pretty fun, considering we didnt get up to much really. We went to lunch with mosh and hev before we left, celebrating mosh turning 18 Had a family dinner at my nans house, and just hung out and went to bed.. took a few classic pics in bed hahaha god we're trippers! next day we just shopped in the city and i got some sunnies, a dress, shorts.. other stuff. and on our way home we stopped in at the "Star Q Deli" and were amazed cos we didnt even know it existed, but is the mirror image of starfish deli!! i struggled through our pizza and salad and then we were on our way again, and made it home in one piece!! and after i helped tegs out with her legal essay i finally got home.. Went to Nowra yesterday (Friday) to see the surgeon who took out my tonsils, and he said it all looks ok, will take time to heal, etc etc. Stopped in at the bay on the way home to chill with Terrence who was on his way to his new life in Thredbo! homeless in the bay, lol. went home, freshened up and sped back to the bay for my first tonsil-less shift at Starfish. i was sooo doey! haha.. when i finished it was raining and miserable but i still went to the bayspew. SO glad i did though, had a pretty good night considering i was sober sally! it always helps things when cute boys are involved ended up being desi for starfish crew and more. was more like a free taxi service really.. took so many ppl home and went all the way to Malua ... TWICE!! omg how could i forget?!?! i met Larry Emdur last night!! i think thats how you spell his name..? but yeah, i heard from Andrea and Kristy that he was around, and i bumped into him outside the bayview!! lol.. very random! but i didnt hang around chatting, was on my way somewhere.. anyway.. didnt get much sleep in the end. went to Kristy's house but by the time everyone went to bed (me, Ben and Bill were already IN bed, but cos it was just a sofa bed, Terry, Kristy and her sister (Nat..?) were still there.. laughing, chatting... preventing us from sleeping) it was about 4.30am?? and even then didnt get to sleep for aaaaaaages. Got up at like 7.30am to drive Bill home and Ben to his car. and yeah.. slept all day today! thought i had to work tonight but it was the best feeling when i realised i wasnt rostered on!! ahhhh.. gotta work 11am til 9pm tomorrow though
anyway, i should sleep some more now. Goodnight, Farewell, until next time my tonsil-loving friends!! ~Shmal~
P.s. check out my new pics.. some there from canberra and some from last night.....
3月14日 Details, Details..Ok so.. things that are going on at the moment:
Bye Bye my healthy friends!! With Love, ~Shmal~ 3月11日 MiXiNg DrUgSYou'd think i would have learnt after the last time i was on hardcore antibiotics that drinking at the same time has a very intense impact on my body.. like Oh My God. i was such a fool last night - SO crazy!! and how many drinks did i have? oh, thats right - Three. Yes, just three and i was absolutely trashed. i was dancing so much and just.. ohmygod the memories are killing me!! i fell flat on my back on the dancfloor cos Ben moved away when i was pushing him. and then mark (i think) tipped water on me!! so when i got helped up i was absolutely drenched and everyone was staring at me, mouths agape. then i think we all laughed, but i was still shamed. still am.
Plus i think i was a bit rude to some people.. or, a person in particular. instead of talking to them and letting them know how im feeling, i just ignored them! <sigh>
But yeah, all in all i still had fun last night. Ended up at some random's house with Mosh and in the morning he wouldnt even get up! his dad drove us back into the bay!! hahahaha oh man some random things were so funny this morning.. but, sorry, i really couldnt do them justice by writing them down here, it was all just so situational - "you had to be there" lol.
i wonder if anyone reads these entries anymore?? maybe just randoms who never comment anyway.. hmmm.. oh well. hopefully im getting a smile on someones face
 In other news, i have made more new and exciting plans for my life. At the end of the year, Tegan and i will be moving to the UK for three months before we both go to uni!! we'll be staying with some of my dads friends to start off with, and then we'll get jobs in pubs etc and travel around a bit and probably freeze our asses off in Dublin with my family for christmas.. what fun!! well, i hope anyway! it'll be nearly nine months of winter - hoorah!! lol nahh it should be good.. meet lots of new people, see the sites, make some money, spend some money...
i dunno what ill be doing with my car though. i dont know whether to sell it for the money or keep it for when i go to uni..?? its annoying cos recently ive spent SO much money on it, and i know that no matter what i sell it for, it wont get what ive paid for it. but thats cars for ya.
I bought mine and Amie's tickets for the gold coast the other day.. Woo!! how exciting!! But i really really need to save my money!! i dont have that much at all at the moment
 hhmmmm.. i cant really think of anything else to say at the moment.. im SO tired and doey.. i just need sleep!! i had a nanny-nap this arvo but the two hours felt like two minutes!!
please leave me comments!!
til next time,
Farewell, my travelling friends!
~shmal~
3月3日 back in touch with today's technologies..well... so, ok i got a new phone. but im not actually in touch with all the features it has.. hehehe.
its so gorgeous, my new phone. i am so happy. BUT i do know that eventually we will go our separate ways (my phone most likely to heaven to join the rest of my collection) and it could be anytime between tomorrow and in 3 years. hopefully it will last longer than previous precious items of mine though..
onto other news.. im going to QLD!! just for a little minibreak with my lover
 ohh.. nothing much really. just a whirlwind tour of the sites.. meet some peeps, break some hearts, you know.. the usual. and what would a road trip with my lover be without a detour to the international departures lounge for some Krispy Kremes!!we are driving my poor excuse for a car, Paddy, up to sydney on the 19th of April, where my not-so-trustworthy-brother will babysit him for a week. that night we will fly out of Mascot to Coolangatta to meet the lovely Raine and Cally and go PARTY!! after our week of fun, we will get up at the crack'o'dawn on the 24th to fly back down to sydney.. where im sure more krispy kremes will be consumed hehehe... ohhh if only James knew our little scheme last time.. with me and Mosh being little miss greedy-guts'
ooohhh im getting so excited now!! flights is only costing me $158 return, and ill only have to pay about $40 petrol too! we dont have to pay accommodation - just alcohol and krispy kremes!! ahahahaaa
so... what else? ohh.. had a run-in with the auto-wrecker guy the other day. i went to get a cable thing of some sort and cos i got one thing wrong when he asked me what sort of brakes i had or something, he decided i was just a dumb girl who didnt know what she wanted. and so he drew me a nice little car diagram about caterpillars and wheels and other funny things and im like "yup, yup.. yup." while inside im like "wtf is he telling me this for?!" so in the end he didnt wana sell me what i had come to get cos he didnt believe that i knew thats what i wanted. so yesterday i went back and demanded it!! haha, well.. not really. but ive realised now that i go there so often that we're on first name basis.. but, crap.. i cant remember his name now! what a crack up..
ok, im rambling.. id better go now
leave me comments!!!
bubbye my roadtrippers and toadtrippers and dopetrippers lol
xoxo
p.s.
check out ma newwww phone!
2月22日 The Ups and Downs Keep Me Rolling Alonghhmmmm..
so many things to say!!
well, im workin hard like a bitch these days.. gets me soooo tired! but then i go out again and forget all about it so maybe theres a balance somehow. but then again, according to some, i lead a "simple life" so who am i to be complaining??
last weekend was a big one.. ups and downs and inbetweens all over the place!
on friday i worked aaaalllll day and drove home exhausted but then it was ok cos when it was time for me to go out with Tegs and Ella, tegan offered to drive us to hers and on to the Bay again :)
we went to dinner at the Peppercorn.. where i work in the daytime. it was a good meal except for them stuffing up our order lol. it was also good cos when we went to pay, we got 10% off and didnt have to pay for our dodgy bread :) it was also super good cos as we were standing there, three cute guys walked in and one came up to me and asked in this gorgeous Scandinavian accent "where do young people go for fun around here?" i told them to go across the road to the Bayview and they're like "thats it??" lol. and im like, "yeah people usually just go to the pub or to house parties.. theres not much on around here, sorry!" so they left again and we payed for our meal and went over to the bayview and whadya know.. there were the three cute guys! hehehe so i dragged ella and tegan over and we sat with them and chatted for a bit until it was clear we were taking our new Danish friends to Raine's pool party!!
so then Frederic, Mike and Paulo followed us to where we had parked tegans car and then i got into the car with Frederic, Ella drove my car with Paulo and Tegs drove her car with Mike.
When we got to Raine's, we had only been there a little while before everyone decided we should trek down to the Pearly's for some reason. me and the Danish boys were undecided whether we should go, but then somehow i was convinced, and i stepped from the concrete to the grass!! lol.. oh, if you were there you'd understand!
so frederic drove us down to the pearly's where Peabody of some other band were playing and yeah... learnt some Danish, decided i was in love with Frederic, smuggled in drinks.. Moshpit and Hev got their fake IDs rejected then snuck in then got kicked out again hahaha then they sweet talked their way back in again!!
anyway, frederic drove my car back and some of us went swimming.. and moshpit and i continued our drunken traditions, and also i kissed the wrong boy and moshpit broke some more hearts and some boys decided fighting might be fun... and..... frederic forgave me for kissing his friend and not him and we had our own little moment.. awwww. he was SO sweet!
the next day i went to the markets to help mum and Tegan came too, after freshening up at my place.
Then when we had decided that we would both go to work together and then continue on to the triple b afterwards, we went home to mine to get organised.
and then...... the fight to end all fights occurred. im not going to go into the background to this event, alls i will say is that for me personally, i felt that it was about time it bubbled to the surface.
i felt that some VERY harsh and unessesary things were said by ella, but then again, im getting used to it. when i tell people what was said, they all seem absolutely stunned that someone could say words like that.. and my mum is actually relieved that i have finally come to my senses and will try my hardest not to let myself fall into the abusive cycle again, i will not forgive her again and again on the unlikely premises that it will not happen again. i feel a weight lifted off my shoulders.
its a little like when i broke up with will.. getting myself out of a relationship where i thought i was happy. but there are definitely big differences in those relationships. Will never hurt me or said he hated me and was always aware of how his life affected mine. so when i knew i was going to hurt him so much it tore me in half. i feel like i will always get emotional for the rest of my life, every time i think about how i broke his heart.
but with this situation with ella, i dont feel that way.. i just feel more able to reflect on her personality, why things have happened, but because of the constant up and downs i experienced, the constant effort to please her and keep her in a good mood, the constant draining of my energy.. i just feel relieved that i dont have to do that anymore.
i must admit though, that when tegan and i got back to my mum (mum shocked to see me shaking and smoking lol) i burst into tears cos i knew my mum would understand and i didnt have to worry anymore.. and i did get a bit emotional when mum told me her experience with an abusive relationship way before i was born....
ok.. so.. anyway!!
that night, i worked at the peppercorn, tegan worked at starfish and afterwards we went down to Raines and convinced her to come to the triple b with us :) so we piled some bikes in the back of the excel and we went down to the bowlo all dressed up lol. we had a good time and took some classic pics and videos but then some random DELETED THEM ALL!! we danced and drank vodka and requested 'gasolina' and shook our booties and wooed some boys and teased some too hehehe. then when it was time to go, we hung around outside the bowlo and instead of riding our bikes home like intended, somehow we squished 5 people into the excel.. lol. there was random dude in the back with with bikes (the back seats were down) and then fez was sitting on the front seat with raine on his lap and then tegan was spread across the front, her butt on the gear stick!! i was driving somehow.. omfg i was laughing so much. pretty stupid to be driving but yeah.. so fun cos we all had to co-operate to be able to drive properly. i had my arms up and over tegan who was on my lap and id go "second!" tegan would lift her butt, id clutch and fez would change to second.. then fez would just want me to change just so he could go "yep, third.. how ya goin" "woah second.. how ya goin" and he's like"fifth?" and tegans like "no! too fast!" and then raines like "alice! wrong side of the road!!" ooops.. shit we're so crazy. and stupid. yes, stupid.
then we all crashed at raines around 3am and the lovers decided to interrupt my dreams with some unwanted sexual moans thank you very much.
 anyway in the morning tegs drove me home and then i freshened up before work at 9am and then worked 6.5hrs uuuurrrrgggghhhhh!!
then yesterday mother and i trekked to canberra cos mum wanted me to have my photos taken. yes, i had glamour photos hahaha.. it was actually quite fun.. the girls there were really nice and they loved that i had lots of outfits and yeah... ill get the pics in a few weeks and when i figure out how to fix my photo uploading thing on here ill post them for all to see!
anyway, i have work again tomorrow!!
must sleeeeeeeep!
CheeeeeeiiiO!!
~shmal~
hahahahaha p.s. when i said we "crashed" at Raines.. i meant that we parked safely and fell asleep at her house.. LOL.
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2月5日 Bayview.. AGAIN!ahhh shit soo blind..
why am i online right now?
im at moshpits place and i should be makin a fool of myselfr with the rest of them...
but instead im here doinng this crapp..
ok something interestings going on i think i gotta go..
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love always from ssssssshhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyy
xoxoxo 1月31日 monthly blogging just doesnt cut it!!How long has it been now??
nearly a month!! quite a bit has happened since then!
there havent been that many parties, but i have been blind a few times! amongst other things...
ok.. i'll list some memorable events that happened since new years (my previous blog). they might not be in chronological order, but thats what you get with a shmal-mind!
I helped my Aunty move house in Sydney..
It was a hoot! me and another aunt creating havoc in the kitchen - making executive decisions over how the cupboards should be stocked, me preparing hordes of food for the troops, entertaining younger cousins, the shopping that was definitely deserved afterwards!
Random night at tuross
it just seemed to drag on forever!! me, tegs, raine, chels scamming a lift with the courtesy bus to the pub to find out it was dead as a dodo! they seemed pretty pissed off when all we did was buy smokes and leave! then we all just hung round at the beach not doing much, wanting to go to the club but never actually getting there.. ending up at fez's plae and then eventually chelseas where we all just hung around making fairy floss, chatting, watching green day, snoozing.. til i went to bed around 3am.. maybe??
Bayview
well the night started off with bindi, amy, ella and i on our way to the bay, with some stale vodka and a stopover at woolies for some last minute drinks. ella and i had two each and left the stale voddy and the remaining two cans in amys car.. stupid mistake!
amy and i got in thru the back gate to be greeted by a whole lotta people and a band. sneaky amy was using bindi's ID!!
anyway, long story short i met up with a few long lost pals, made a few new ones along the way and it was only when the pub shut that the adventure began!
i somehow followed a group of randoms out of the pub and across the street and into a hotel.. hung around in some random room with totally random people, and then tried to stop this lad from jumping naked into the bay!! however, my attempts proved unsuccessful, and also painful, as i cut up and twisted my ankle on the rocks! i think i was also pretty rude to some nice lad who tried to help me but i just shoved him away and kept running. anyway, as i realised if i didnt leave i would be stuck in the bay for the night, i decided to farewell these random folk and go back to the street. BUT i soon discovered i had been locked in! after running around for a bit - presumabley looking like a poor lost drunk fool - some nice boys came to my rescue and jumped the fence and passed me back over to some other nice boys. somehow i eventually made it home!!
Josh's lil shindig
going to josh's seemed to prove costly to my health, as i had only a slight quiver in my voice at the beginning of the night, and by the morning i was like a fucking turkey!
the usual shenanigans happened.. dramas with boyfriends, cars, drunks, snorers, hunger, sleep-talkers, shotting, pingpong, pool, and of course.. a few good laughs! ate pizza
 with cally and josh and rowan (?) and didnt get to bed until around 5.30am and then slept til about 9am...went to the beach and the river with my two loverly ladies and then dined out for a yummy lunch
We got a new fridge!!
its so cool (literally!!) it has an ice maker and water dispenser!! but it takes up quite some space in our modest kitchen...
Potato Point Party - fun yet disastrous!
started off with the trio being ferried first to woolies and then to the party in paddy by the lovely mitchell. tegan made a goose of herself by crying out at the checkouts "Shmal!! The Vinegar!!" thinking id forgotten it for my dear mother.. right as the chick was swiping it.. oh dear shmeg!!
the party was a fair way out into the bush and was down a very steep driveway, so we parked paddy at the top of the hill on a nice bit of flat as his handbrake has decided its holding days are over.. then we trekked down the hill (shmeg and i in heels i might add) and had a bit of fun until someone (cally and melly??) informed me of the first disaster of the night.. Paddy had rolled down the hill - over a sign post, some saplings, logs and bushes... and into a ute!! but it was ok - the ute that is. paddy broke his glass eye but not the bulb and had a few more dings and scratches to add to his collection.. mitch somehow backed it up and then miss muscles (aka ME!) pushed it over a big pile of.. scrub stuff and down the hill.
anyway, after parking it on an even flatter patch and securing him with rocks around his wheels, we headed back to the party to liven things up again!
the next disaster struck when i discovered that tegan and my vodka had been replaced with WATER!! yes, someone with access to Raines car had gone to the trouble of drinking our voddy and then refilling it with water. so sly. i think it was so low of someone to do that to someone elses drink - especially when it was obviously a friends!
after some more partyng and running around and seeing jubla practically raped (LOL) and some excitement on the dancefloor and in a random pumpkin patch, the next disaster struck! mitchell used the wrong key in the car door and broke the ignition key!! eek! so then mothers had to be called at 2.30am and spare keys found and eventually delivered by ellas mum way out into the bush and then finally we were on our way home! mitch thrashed paddy for his sins (hehehe) and demonstrated his limits to me on the way home.. something im too chicken to do!
 i finally got into bed at 3.30am.. thank god!My BBBQ - the extra B is for BYOBB
yeah, my bbbq was fairly fun.. had help setting up from tegs and ella and had some fun cutting fruit and whatnot until the first guest (reioni
 ) at 2pm.the afternoons events trickled along until the last guest (Will) left around 9.30/10pm.. we had punch (lush!) and went to the beach, and told funny stories, and ate so much food, and drank... and filled Peta's swiss cousin up with so much beer hehehe... we also had a makeshift 18th birthday cake for moi and yeah.. i dont know how, but i managed to do all the cleaning up after everyone left! but thank you so much to tegan for helping to clean throughout the evening.. made it all so much easier!
Job Acceptance
today i got a great phonecall from the manager at the restaurant where i applied for a job telling me i had been successful! hoorah!! i start work tomorrow at 5pm.. i am experiencing that emotion that is not accounted for in the english language - a mixture of excitement and nervousness. as reioni and i were discussing, there should be one word for this feeling, and ive decided it shall be "jozzled" as in "im feeling quite jozzled about the whole situation" ... hahaha i love it!
anyway, its too late for this nonsense!!
ill have some stolen pics from potato point up soon
cheerio my drunks and lovers and .. both!
 ~shmal~
1月2日 Anything & Everything Can & HAS Happened To The One-and-Only Shmal...Its true - so much has happened to me in 2005, i am so glad to see the end of it!
to top off such a depressing year i am also quite disappointed in my attempts at celebrating the end of 2005 (on new years eve of course).. "crap on a stick" i think is an appropriate way to describe my night. yeah so i kissed a few cute guys but i was hardly drunk OR pingin' (thank you very much Joshua!) plus the fact that i lost my phone and lisence adds to my utter dismay.
however, i was feeling quite free and flowy in my new dress and managed to run a total distance of around 5km during the night with tegan - the both of us in heels!
i really couldnt be bothered to detail the night, let alone everything that has happened since my last entry...
for a final note i will just say if anyone wants my temporary new number then email me and you shall receive! but dont go deleting my old one - i'll be getting a replacement sim in the next few days (thankfully its courtesy of vodafone.. on the house. if only i got a free phone as well!!)
cheerio all my new-year readers,
Happy New Year!
May 2006 be oh-so-much-better than that crappy excuse for a year - 2005!!
12月18日 Vice CitySo the theme was Vice City which is apparently a playstation game or something with mobs, bling, skanks and sugar daddies... i think.
although my outfit was thrown together in about 30 seconds from the scraps on cally's floor, i felt like the most dressed-up skanky person there!! i think the 6-inch heels were the icing on the cake.
i arrived at the party fashionably late after whizzing out to pick up the girls from tuross, then back into town to get a whole heap of UDLs. whilst at woolworths, something in my brain snapped and i turned into an energy-boosted giggle-machine. when we pulled up at the gate to get our names ticked off the list, for some reason i stopped, turned the car off and took off my seatbelt. when i realised, i cracked up into hysterical laughter again and then to make things worse, instead of winding down my window to talk to the boys on the gate, i opened my door, hitting one of the little lads in the nose!!
my god i was crying with laughter i couldnt control myself!! the girls were just screaming at me to drive but when we were directed to parking i said "but i dont have 4WD!!" so did a few burnouts instead.
i seriously do not understand what came over me. all the excitement just got to me or something.
OR (i just thought of this) maybe i actually was drugged on friday night and randomly started pingin' again!! its quite possible.
anyway...
the party was fun and i managed to keep my fragile ankles intact, as well as my dignity. haha that reminds me of something Elle said to me last night when i told her to look out for my silver identity bracelet that i lost on friday night. she asked "what else did you lose?" and i replied "oh, just my dignity, inhibitions, humility..." which is sooo true!!
i didnt drink much last night because of those losses on friday night. i had about 3 UDLs over the whole night, but i was happy and chirpy like the rest of them... excluding Dale and Joel!! they were just gone!! for example, Joel was sneezing and spew was coming out his nose. eewwwwwww!!
ummm... well i took a few photos but i didnt embark on many notable missions except to move my car from down on the hill to up next to the house. Mel and Rowena got a lift but were cracking up at me trying to see where i was going. it was a catch-22 because the window was fogged up, so i had my nose pressed to the glass trying to see but then my breath was just making it worse!! ah hahahaha!!
Tegan and i went kippers around 2.30am (after finally getting Sam and Shayto out of our cars! - i blame them for my missing 4 drinks!!).. we snuggled down on what we thought was a lush soft rug in the loungeroom but i soon found out that it was anything but!! plus the fact that i was wearing tiny shorts, a massive jumper and trying to manouvre myself under a blanky and doona with someone trying to do the same thing right next to me.. it took me a long while to get comfortable! but after that it was all flowery fields and flowy skirts and footprints on the beach. hahaha, no way! i wish my dreams were like that!!
This morning i woke feeling not too bad indeed and decided to find out how brooklyn was feeling by jumping on him to wake him up.. a hee hee! lol he wasnt too impressed, ahh good times! there were a few seedy hungover people but not as bad as it could have been! Tegan and i grabbed a bag each and beat the dogs to the half-empty bottles on the lawn. seriously, those dogs had it goin on! they were licking up all the left over alcohol, and then eating all the half eaten sausages and cake!! hahaha. whilst tidying up a bit i noticed a lone car down on the hill with a very unconscious Dale snoring away. at least he was breathing!!
after a quick brekky we then left a chirpy Karen and a seedy Brooklyn to do the rest while we headed off home.
And that was my night!!
How was yours??
ciao ciao all my skanks and gangstas!
xoxo
12月14日 The Story So Far...Before you read this, may i recommend the delicious entrée of the blog below??
Since ive been back from my trip to canberra, i havent really done much at all.. Mainly i have just been beach-bumming it, as all good school-leavers should do! Apart from that i went into school to receive my award (and $60 gift voucher!! Woo!!)...
However, i did come to a significant understanding about the other two thirds of The Trio after my trip into school. whilst in the assembly, i gave my two besties their Christmas presents. i was quite proud of myself for managing to find gifts for everyone (except my brother - but thats only cos i couldnt find what i was looking for!) and having them wrapped, spiffy, and raring to be put under other people's trees. BUT as i was soon to find out, the values of my friends are shockingly different to my own in regards to the etiquette of giving and receiving Christmas presents. i was absolutely stunned to hear that as soon as the assembly was over they couldnt control their own childish desires, could not bring themselves to muster some respect and patience in regard to my gifts, and ripped them open right there!!
Well i can say right now that that's not how i pictured this scene (nor any other Christmas gift giving scenes)!! i could not believe that these two girls had just thrown aside all maturity and etiquette by opening their presents before Christmas! if i had known that this process was going to be so informal then i wouldnt have even wrapped and ribboned and carded the bloody things! i would have just shoved them in their faces and said "here. have this."
As far as im concerned, the key word here is Christmas. that is, these are Christmas presents!! intended to be opened on Christmas Day!! and if not, i expect it would be of the understanding of all givers and receivers if the gifts were to be unwrapped then and there. This point is what gets at me most; if they were so keen to discover their presents before Christmas Day, they could at least have the decency to ask "Can i open it now?" and if the answer was yes, then they would be opened in my presence!!
What i would like to know is if these are common occurrences with these two girls.. For example if their grandmother gave them a present on the 13th of December, wrapped and ribboned and carded, and said "Merry Christmas m'dear", would they rip into it the first opportunity they got? Am i that insignificant a part of their lives? I mean of course i dont want to be treated like a grandmother, but at least with some sentimentality!! Its not as if i go around throwing gifts about willy-nilly!!
Well there's my rant for the week. i guess i got so worked up because i thought i knew my friends better than that. especially one in particular. Oh well, not much i can do about it now is there?? They know what i gave them for Christmas, before Christmas!
I dont think i have anything else of relevance to write about tonight, except that im so full of dinner even though i didnt eat most of it. I guess thats the wheat-influence. My parents spontaneously wanted to go out to dinner tonight, so who am i to complain? except when ive done hospitaliy for two years and food technology for six, and nothing seems up to scratch anymore. i cant help but picking the whole event to pieces!! i guess it would also be like that if you were in the movie business or something, you would never be able to watch a movie without being critical of it!
Ok, so i have another complaint; my patchy-tan. i have patches of creamy-white, then patches of either sunburn-red or milk-coffee-tan!! its not fair! i dont want to have to pay money for an all-over, even tan! i mean sure, if someone else is willing to pay for it then i'd be happy to! but all i can afford is a walk to the beach and a patchy tan
 Thats all for tonight, my gift-giving Christmas freaks!
~Ciao!
procrastination.. what a killer!!when i was meant to be doing my exams, coming on the net and writing enormous blogs and emails was such fun! it was the best form of procrastination with the point of avoiding study.. i think it worked quite well, and im sure i will have documented proof when i get my results on saturday. i didnt even know when i was going to get my results back until brooklyns dad informed me on sunday!! i had no idea why i should be nervous about saturday. as far as i knew, saturday was just brooklyn and karens party!!
god i am finding it so hard to type right now, mum is dictating into a tape recorder for one of her medical terminology students. it was fine when some random chick was talking about all these diseases and ewwy stuff but mums voice is so distracting and loud!!
but im determined and i will persevere!
back to procrastination.. these days i seem to find excuses NOT to email and blog all the time. i always have so much stuff to say but just cant seem to be bothered anymore!! but i think ive let this situation get out of hand just a little too far...
ok so, i have had an eventful week and a half since i last blogged.
last monday, tuesday and wednesday i braved the mad mile with faulty brakes and ventured to the Catalina Country Club at the Bay for my Bar Service course. was much fun with friendly people and some interesting facts which i like to spring on people at random moments. like how irish whiskey is distilled for three years not two like in scotland, and where all those different beers come from, and... a few more!
i learnt how to pull beers, mix standard drinks and reaquainted myself with the espresso machine (which the teacher had an irritating habit of calling the expresso machine)...
on wednesday afternoon, after we finished early for the day, saara and i celebrated the end of the course (and my 100% on the test at the end!) by testing out the clubs expensive facilities.. mainly vodka (and bacardi) for me, but saara tried a whole range of new tastes!!
then ella and tegan turned up and we wandered through town and did some stuff and things... then ella drove me to her house and i made it home in one piece! ok, i wasnt drunk, but it made me realise how much i drink at parties to get drunk! i had 5 drinks that day and was only slightly giggley!!
the next day i swam at the wharf down the road with Will and our dogs and took some fun phone-photos. then it was off to town to pick up tegan and ella from school and we all went to the beach. the setting was nice at first but then the clouds came over (typical!) and us gals didnt venture into the water too far!! after ice creams courtesy of yours truly, we all went home and then tegan and i rushed into town to help cater for the year 10 formal.
yes i do realise i dont go to school anymore but mrs holden loves me and i wanted a free ticket to see all the beautiful gowns and spiffy guys! tegan and i took a quick break to go get some supplies for the afterparty (i.e. goon) but were stopped in our tracks with the request for ID - from both of us!! luckily my dad came to the rescue, swallowed his pride, masked his shame, and bought us the goon!! wooot!!
after we had ferried food from the kitchens to the hall and served and cleaned etc, we both got our pics taken with Jack and Matt by the professional photographers that were there.
after we got a lift out to the afterparty with Clemo, we partied like there was no tomorrow (well, not as literally as some stupid year 10 boys) and after tegan and i polished of my 3 smirnoffs, we proceeded with Hev onto the goonage.
i rode a tricycle, quit trying to quit smoking, danced, played nurse to some poor lads who had previously misunderstood the true evils of alcohol, wrote regrettable messages, ummm... and some other blurry stuff that has been wiped from my memory!!
we ended up hitching a ride to town with some lad and his mum, then hiking all the way to the turn off where mother picked us up. she drove Hev home then tegan and i finally made it home. but not before tegan decided to ignore my mother's offers to pull over if she is feeling sick, and SPEW OUT THE WINDOW!!! how gross!! plus, mum knew!! how could she not?! and despite tegans efforts to hose it off in the morning, there were still stains that day. ewwww!!
speaking of that day, i had a killer hangover until i decided to make myself sick, which worked wonders, actually!! im going to do it more often! my recovery was aided by lush eggs and bacon and tea, mmmm
after recovery, i drove with my parents to Nowra, dropping tegan at the bay along the way. at Nowra, i only waited about 10 minutes to see the specialist. he was really nice (except when he opened up my nostrils for a squizz using some nostril-separators!!)
after nowra we continued on to canberra via some back road. but as i slept the entire way i dont remember much! Canberra was fairly uneventful; the highlights were making egg-nog (lush!) and getting 98% of my christmas shopping done!!
i think i'll have to make a new blog for the rest of what i have to say now, so.... time to read the next one!!
~Ciao!
12月3日 My new take on the markets... and the NutMan!my mum decided that she wanted to clear out some stock, so brought double the stuff to the markets today, and had a new stall, as well as the regular one. everything was half price so it was mayhem. i wasnt that comfortable as i was left to my devices to 'man' the new stall, set it up, pack it up, serve everyone, and stand in the scorching sun without a hat.. eek! but then mum took over for a while so it was ok.
we made a good profit, which was a bonus, and got rid of heaps of stuff!
the hard part was trying to fit all the boxes into the two cars again.. we had two panel-van loads of stock, but only one panel-van and a station wagon!!there was also a slight panic as there was a storm brewing!!
however, before the packing of the cars, there was the packing of the stalls. as i was packing mine by myself, it was quite strenuous. i was on the verge of being flustered so i took of my jacket. but as i was unzipping it, there was a distinct wolf-whistle from somewhere to my left. i knew who it was and i am still disgusted! it was this sleazy guy, about mid 40s - on the brink of being a nuff-nuff - and helping the nut man pack up his stall.. and then when i was liaising between mine and my mothers stall, the offending whistler blocked my path and said, "Alice?" im like "yyeeaahhh..." and then he introduced himself as Robert, assisted by a leering grin. so i said a quick "hi" and scuttled off to the protection of my dad.
then i got an appology from the nut man, who told me not to worry about him, he''s just a dreamer.. or some crap like that. the nut man also informed me that he had asked my mother how old i was and she had replied "18.. old enough" oh great, thanks mom!!
anyway, i managed to prevent any further confrontations from 'Robert' but got another message from the nut man asking if Robert could get a ride home with me cos he lives near me. double damn... so i told him dad would probably have room.. when the nut man relayed this message, i heard a disappointed exclamation and then some laughing. i now have less respect for the nut man. even though he always gives me free fresh cashews, im not going to be so friendly and trusting in future!!
In other news, i did my RSA course (Responsible Service of Alcohol) on Thursday, and passed the simple test at the end so i will soon be receiving my certificate in the mail! hoorah! on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday i will be doing a Bar Service course in the Bay which should be lots more fun than the RSA cos its not just boring theory work, we are actually taught how to serve behind a bar!! wooooot!! then on the Friday im FINALLY seeing the Ear, Nose and Mouth Specialist in Nowra. hopefully he'll remove my tonsils. everybody wish for me!! then from Nowra me and mum are going to my Aunty's 40th birthday party in Canberra so that should be smashing! especially if i get to borrow the car while we're there!!
 it seems like everybody is turning 40 recently! Tegans uncle, my aunty, Joe... well, not everybody, but there have been quite a few 40ths lately, enough to draw my attention! but i guess, my Aunty isnt really forty this year. She was supposed to turn forty last year but she was flying back from Hawaii at the time, and completely skipped her birthday!! i guess thats one way to lose a year!!
anyway, i must depart. my mother is about to see which jewellry bid she won from Ebay! totally cool!!
cheerio my marketeers
xoxo
11月27日 Baby Did A Bad, Bad ThingSo maybe i should just do it the Tegan way and write in an obscure "what the hell is she on about" fashion... i feel that i cant really write what i am actually thinking; for one because i myself find it difficult to decipher my emotions, and for two because others may either take offence or completely change their perception of me.
I think I might be changing my perception of me. I'm certainly a very different person to the one i was about 6 months ago. So much has happened, both good and bad. im still trying to come to grips with the events of the past six months. come to think of it, there hasnt really been a state of equilibrium regarding the aforementioned events. they have actually been heavily swinging towards the negative side; but for some reason, the minor happinesses that have sparked up my life in between have seemed to keep me sane. amazing. just imagine if there were more!
well the title of this blog seems to sum up my perception of myself as a result of the weekend that is now drawing to a close. that song has been playing through my head at random moments, reminding me of my sins. its now getting to quite an irritating stage.
im not quite sure what to write anymore. alls i know is that my emotions are being toyed with by others, and i have taken the liberty of toying with others'. some would say "karma". i guess i could agree. i just dont know anymore.
i seem to sigh a lot these days. and watch a lot of DVDs.. by myself.
i never used to be one troubled by love. lust. infatuations. BOYS. curse boys. why cant they just be sweet all the time and simple to understand and eager to please and be pleased... if only, hey.
its so hard to control emotions, or explain them. no one else ever seems to comprehend the emotional motives of another. like those violent relationships where people cant understand why she doesnt just leave him. its so much more complicated than that.
my brain hurts. i think im getting too philosophical for Shmal standards...
up, up and away....
goodnight lovers and losers
xoxo
11月23日 About Time...sorry its taken me so long to get this published! i havent been online since the 10minutes i had on friday!
anyway.. the formal.
Before The Formal
Ella came over and it took me about an hour to curl her hair into luscious lovely locks and about 3 minutes to do my own crappy attempt at a hair do. we made ourselves up and got dressed and then got very very stressed. as my nan was there, the whole situation was made so much worse by her constant whining for attention. she has this thing where she cant stand not being included (ive decided its a psychological issue where she thinks because she's getting older people wont need her, so she tries to make herself useful, or make us feel guilty for not including her and praising her 24/7) and anyway, i ended up being yelled at and pushed and shoved because of nans deliberate sabotaging. apparently she wanted photos with me before i left, but i didnt know this did i? i was told she was coming to the formal! but then she must have decided we hated her or something and then said she wasnt coming. arrgh! so then we had to convince her to come anyway. but thats ok, im a good actor, its not so hard for me to argue passionately about something i dont even want to happen.
anyway tegan turned up with a fashion crisis; she wasnt wearing a bra because all could be seen. so we ended up improvising with my chicken fillet bra. then we had some rushed photos as pdidjow, jason and siobhan turned up...
The Stresses:
The Formal The formal was ok i guess. there was a bit of a kerfuffle involving my inconsiderate father making my stressed out mother and me cry, but thats nothing unusual. someone ate half my dinner. the photo man was a pain in the ass. the food was average (what i had of it) and the music was pretty good in substance, but not very good in organisation. the band didnt start til later than everyone expected, then declared they were having a break after their first set which everyone thought was the end so we all left! however, mum took it upon herself to go shopping for me and got us a bottle of voddy, lots of soft drink, a big tub of maltesers, two blocks of chocolate, plastic cups, packets of chips, three packets of chocolate mint slice biscuits.... ohhhhh so good! BUT half of the goodies were meant to be taken to the afterparty by jess, but she took it upon herself to leave them behind, saying to her mum "no one wants to eat it!" well im sorry, but i sure did at 3am!! anyway, tegan and i nicked about half the cake that was cut in my absence, and i danced for a bit and we contemplated nicking the live, ornamental, decorative, freaked-out goldfish on our tables... but i decided against it considering tegans history with pet fish!
The After-Party well... we got to cally's whereupon i found some clothes, shoes and other garments to wear. we amused ourselves with Cally's little dogs (seven little fluffy white things!!) especially when Ella and i were walking across the lawn and she says to me something like: "i cant see where im treading.. am i gonna walk on them?" and im like "Cally always says she just kicks them" so i gingerly give the smallest one (no more than 30cm long) a little nudge with my foot and it rolls over and over across the lawn! it was sooo funny! it was like it had done it before or something! then we had the great adventure of trekking about 2kms to get to Dale's... then i filled up my voddy and waterfords... a lot of times. it seemed to get spilled a lot... im not very good with the chronological order of events but here's some vital events:
So that was Formal Night FINALLY!! sorry again that it took so damn long! the pics are up now too so hope you all enjoy those!!
I forgot to add that my word-of-the-night was "AWESOME". for some reason i couldnt control this word from leaving my lips at an incredible pace! everytime something happened i'd just go "awesome!"... trust me, i was confused too! i realised it was happening, but i just couldnt control it! 11月16日 Update Update Update Update Update...woo!
i really have nothing to woo about (unless theres some hot guy around, worthy of wooing, hehehe) but i thought it might be a good way to begin this blog.
my yr 12 formal is tomorrow night. i am not excited. i have many reservations about my attendance, most of which are based on my appearance. gotta love image issues.
i'll fill you guys in:
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